Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Happy Thoughts

So in just a few short days, B will be leaving. He'll definitely be gone at least a month. Possibly six. He is not deploying, he's just going TAD for a while.

I should be upset. And I am. I mean, that's a long time for my husband to be gone. I know, I know, I know. Marine Corps Wife - suck it up, move on, it's what happens. I KNOW.

But still. It doesn't matter when, where, or how long they leave, it still sucks. Right?

Anyway. I guess it's my coping mechanism, but all I can do is keep thinking about things that will change for the good while he's gone.

Way less laundry.
No more 3.30 am alarms.
No tiny little hairs and puddles of water around the sink from the morning shave.
NO stinky PT gear.
Dinner for two: less to cook and less to clean.
No guns. No cleaning guns. No shows about guns. No talk about guns.
Sleeping in the middle of the bed.

So I keep thinking about those good things and it's making it a lot easier. The most annoying/frustrating part right now, is that we don't know a return date. Or month. Or season even. At least I know he should be home this year. That's something, right? Oh Marine Corps. Thanks for keeping us on our toes.

BUT when he gets home, we are going to start trying to have a baby! I'm pretty excited. But I want a healthy pregnancy, so I've started going to the gym. If you knew me, your jaw would be on the ground right now. Today was my first session and it wasn't too bad. I got the personal trainer, since it's $5/hour. She had me do a few things and thank goodness, she's very nice and friendly. I don't want a Drill Instructor telling me to walk faster. I would probably just quit.

That is one of the reasons the whole no return date is so flippin' frustrating. I'm WAY too excited about the idea of having a baby and knowing that I have to wait until he gets home...blech.

I've started reading some books and things online about having babies. It's kind of gross, huh? That's a bit daunting, but I keep hearing the end result is worth it, so we shall see.

Monday, March 21, 2011

One Year

So I have officially been a Marine Corps wife for a year now. I feel as though I have done quite a bit in this year, and learned a ton. So, as my jump back in to blogging, I'm going to share a few things I've learned. *(Probably nothing too surprising for any other military spouses!)*

He means it when he says I know what he knows, whether it's about TDY, TAD, PCSing, deploying, or even when he has duty.
It's just
annoying that he doesn't know much.

Life is easier when you go with the flow and accept that
you don't have control.
Not that I have learned to do this, but I know I should.
...I figure that's halfway there, right?

I will tear up when I hear anything patriotic.
still surprises me.

My husband will not brag about himself, regardless of what he has done.
It's a Marine thing.
That's fine.

I can do it for him.

No matter where your husband is, when you hear on the news about a casualty, your heart will stop. Because you know

it could be your Marine
And God bless the CACO Officers, but I never want to meet one.

No matter how much you love who you are with and where you are,

it is really hard to be so far away from everyone

you need in your life. I'm still trying to figure out how to make long distance friendships work, and sometimes, I feel like I am failing miserably.

Military wives are an interesting breed of women. Most are strong and brave and completely independent capable women. Others are very immature, whiny, and a bit crazy.
Figuring out who is what is like navigating a mine field.

It is frustrating and
hurts every time someone tells me that I knew what I was getting in to. I am not sure how they think I am going to take it, but I fail to see how knowing that I was marrying a Marine makes it any easier to say goodbye to him for months at a time.

I *thought* I knew what "friends that turn in to family" meant when I was in college.
I did not.
Now, however, I do. And
I am so grateful for them.

Sorority life was amazing training for military wife life!

I would not trade this life for anything.